Only Conscious of Being in the Unconscious.

Thoughts

 

This is the Seventh Thought

 

08/07/08 19:17

This Seventh Note will consist about some quotes I made in my notebook again.  So lets start as soon as possible.

 

First Note

08/07/08 9:58AM turning 59AM

If someone falls into a state of some kind of “sleep”(where it is considered that this person is unconscious) then Humankind says:   S/He lost consciousness.

That is that within any form of existence that is not of this world, and beyond death, you have no consciousness as you lost it.

So being on the other side, according to the above, you have no consciousness.   So on the other side you go into the unconscious – that which is sought in this life to know in order to get knowledge of all kinds

                                                                                                                 08/07/08 10:03AM

 

Second Note

08/07/08 10:36AM

On the night of 6^th and 7^th of July 2008, I had this dream.  At first I was living several lives (about 2) but only for a short period.

Then I landed in a riverbed and all I saw was little footprints.  And I realized in my dream that it was Charlie’s footprints and then all stopped and as I heard the voice of “Rina (my mother’s best friend and my second mother)” and she was saying that it was better that Charlie was not there at this stage we were in in this riverbed.  And I sank into the unconscious (where that was all I was conscious of – the being unconscious).

And a riverbed (according to Ted Andrews in his book “Animal Speak”) is linked to the flow of time.  So my dog Charlie made deep prints in the flow of time.  And as I was in that state where I lost consciousness, Charlie’s face appeared to me and he was so close to me – and then I woke up.

                                                                                                                       08/07/08  10:43AM

 

Third Note

08/07/08 11:12

My dog was the 3^rd thing I watched on TV my first night out of ICU after being shot.  And what happened was that I was watching the movie on M-net and there was this guy getting shot and they were showing how the bullet went through his body in slow motion.   And I called the sister to put the TV for me on another channel.  She did, but there they had this religious panel discussing religions and I was so terrified as that is something I once wrote about but then was told I write abnormal stuff.  So I was blocked by a psychiatrist as well as my parents to put my hand on paper anymore.  So the religions was also making me anxious and I called the sister again and asked for another channel and when she switched it over, there were an ad about MTN, where they were advertising a dog that looked similar to my dog and this dog got a big bone and he had the most quote place to live in and he was boss there.  And I could not understand how these programs could link to me and told the sister to put the TV off.  I was very upset about this TV thing, but now, 6 years later, I get the wireless internet and the mainframe coming on each time is the email I have with the name:  Charliethehero.  So the computer – which is HP (Harmony and Peace – where I were in while in hospital after being shot and having that big operation) – uses for the Fastlink, my dog and this fast link is of MTN. 

 

And my dog’s name starts with CH, so does the name of his specie start with CH (Chihuahua).  But at the time of his death on 7/5 of this year, there were a massive earthquake in China and there were an Typhoon in Myanmar (linked to China as well in some way) and the volcanic eruption in Chile.

But if you look at CH, it gives according to their place in the hierargy of the English Alphabet, a 38.  But if you view MTN, its numbers starts and initially only started with the numbers 083, where 83 is the inverse of 38.  All these subtle links, coincidence?

I remember that night with the TV thing I thought to myself, you have got a serious delusional, paranoic unbalanced view/perspective.  But when I look at all the coincidences that is actually only coming out now, I am starting to wonder if there is not maybe any grounds I had for these feelings not being true?  Maybe it was destiny to have seen what I saw and having all the things happening now as it is happening, making that experience not so abnormal, but extraordinary.

                                                                                                                                    08/07/08 11:17AM

 

So much for the Notes.  But I think the main thing is the first and second part (although the third part is in its own way going to be useful later on) about consciousness.  I think the extreme took place within my dream – being conscious of being in the unconscious. 

And later this afternoon I saw where I have been all day – as the opening was there, the opening to the place where I have been in hospital after being shot and after the emergency operation which Master Kuthumi called:  the NO-thingness.  But this place has been discussed so many times in these last few posts!!

End of the 7^th Thought.

                                                                                                                                        08/07/08 19:52 or 7/7         

The Mirror – Mess(of ALL the)ages

THOUGHTS

 

This is the Sixth Thought

 

01/07/2008 21:20 (cell’s time)

 

This Thought is going hand in hand with the Fifth Thought.   The reason why I say that is because the Fifth Thought was written this morning for a reason.  And that reason being the following and I quote from the Fifth Thought:

 

I know it must sound totally weird/abnormal to anyone who does not understand the levels me and my friends are working on.  And the other thing is:  only if you read all the parts from a certain point, will you perhaps understand what the “parts” are leaving behind.  A path, a path to what is good for this Creation and what not.  I am fooling around with the Big Boys of Physics and what they believe – and it seems if you do not agree (and I do not disagree – and that is why I am not understood, because how does this make sense?), you are viewed as abnormal.  If you only think white, or if you only think black, you will definitely not understand what I am trying to convey.  If you think, ah, maybe white or black, then you have succeeded to another level.  But when you think grey, and even disregard black or white and immediately think grey, you are considered weird/abnormal.  And everything in “weird/abnormal” is a no-no to society!

 

But I went through the whole process again today to get clarity on the last posts in my blogs and on the quote I made this morning in the Fifth Thought.  So I realized (after I wrote a note tonight on the subject of the above quote), what actually was troubling me today.  And I realized what is actually happening when I feel the way I do on days like today.  I am moving up levels – which is not easy as it makes you feel very uncomfortable.  And like myself today, until now I did not realize what is actually happening.  But I am tapping into the one layer after the other.  Late this afternoon, as I was on my way back home after some shopping I did, I realized but I am actually feeling threatened and I realized that I am tapping into the overall consciousness of this whole area I am living and shopping and therefore living in.  It holds a thread as I did not understand at first that these people that stay in this area holds a different perspective than I do.  And the overall consciousness is that these letters I am writing, will be considered “weird” by them and probably be condemned.  And I am picking up on that (and that is why I feel threatened) and because I did not realize it earlier, got scared without knowing or understanding.  Now I know and maybe it will help a bit in future to not feel so threatened as it is a level/layer humankind does not tap into consciously easily.  But then I have to make the breakthrough to the outside of consciousness as we know it to the NO-thingness.  And that takes some pain and some thoughts for food for getting there.  That is difficult to explain but I remember the dream I had of this “Being” that I saw through two windows and how we all went to hide from this “being”, but as we were hiding next to this place where I saw this “Being” through the windows, this “Being” came to us and I looked up and this “Being” shot me in my throat chakra (in my neck) and said to me:  “You have seen Me”.  And the others hiding with me did not even look up – and no one else got shot.  I don’t know what happened after that…

 

But I got a note that is written in my notebook that explains a lot to me – and I hope it clear some of the other stuff I wrote recently:

 

01/07/2008 18:30 and 1 + 8 = 9 and 9 + 3 = 12, the number of fulfilment.

When I look at where Quantum Physics, based on particles like “atoms” are coming from (Brown and the microscope), then an atom is nothing more than an illusion.  So Quantum Physics’ “the observer influencing the observed”, is based on an illusion.

 

Brown was wondering (in the 1600’s) what was making the living organisms underneath the microscope, which he was investigating and researching, what made the organisms move around?  Well, they were/are living organisms he researched – so the most logical answer is that these organisms made themselves move around underneath observation (the microscope) as they must be guided by something inside themselves.  So why did Brown choose the option that it must have been something not visible (that must also be alive but just out of sight) and something therefore illusionary, that made living organisms function (move around in this case).  So according to this, living organisms are being guided by the illusion from the organisms outside.  So Brown was right – you just have to see it in the right context.  In this case living species (organisms) like humankind, are guided by the illusion, namely the state of mind of the world of opposites and of perceptions.  So humankind has invented something – else than nothing (NO thing) to create something that comes down to be something which Science eventually called “atoms”, to explain what is making living organisms actually move around.  So where atoms come from is that they were invented from an illusionary perspective.

 

So instead of the True Logic behind the illusion that Brown chose to explain how living organisms are guided (not from inside the living organism, but the illusionary outside), humankind got confused of the misleading principals of the state of mind of the world of opposites and of perceptions, and fell for the illusion (misleading) by believing that “the observer can influence the observed” or then in plain Quantum Physics style:  each human is guiding his own destiny by way of manifesting all in his/her life.  But according to the most first discovery of atoms, it was outside the living organism to guide the living organism.  So if the organism was guided from something outside, then how can Quantum Physics, based on this, proof that humankind can manifest his own life from within his/herself?

 

But if they don’t look in the mirror anymore, they will understand that the illusion that Brown “invented”, was to show humankind that they are leading their lives in a state of mind of the world of opposites which is an illusion (which was proven in so many of my letters to Lore), and that this is misleading and two, they are made up of perceptions, which confuse everything even more in a misleading of the True in all aspects.

 

But people just love to look at themselves in the mirror, that is why they so desperately want to believe the misleading – that they are manifesting their own lives (that means – each individual is manifesting his own destiny and what is so incredible is that nothing clashes with each one just by his own set of perceptions manifest whatever he wants.  And what is so incredible is that they belief this without thinking that wouldn’t it just be chaos if each individual, without the interference of a Higher Source, were manifesting his/her own destiny?).  How ridiculous can a mirror fool humankind?

                                                                                                   01/07/2008 18:50

(Or 6:50PM or then 65 – the ultimate amount of dimensions there apparently are).

 

So I have clarity again about this whole issue about manifesting.  I was thinking to myself and punishing myself about what have I manifested?  How did it influence the people around me?  And my friend Lore told me that I must not worry, as everyone is organising his/her own destiny….but that just blew my mind as somewhere along the line (I realized), someone’s manifestations had to influence someone else’s manifestations – and what then?  But this question is now answered to me by this piece of information that was given for me this afternoon.  May it be clear to the ALL at some stage as well…

This is the End of the Sixth Thought that is an extension of the Fifth Thought which give a 6 and a 5 or 65.  The Fifth Thought is actually not worth anything, without the Sixth Thought.

01/07/2008 22:06 (cell’s time) where the minutes put the emphasis on the 6 again.  But the 2^nd part of the date of today, is a 7, but the hour consists of 2’s.  So if we put all the 2’s together, the 2^nd of the date and the 2 and 2 of the hour, we get 22 and 7, or PI.  The Golden Paved Middle Way to The New Jerusalem, or my Phd, or the Goff – it has got so many names, but it started off in this Thought as the NO-thingness.                    

 

The Extension of the 6^th Thought – Thoughts6

 

 

17/07/2008 13:38 related to CH

I regard Brown as the Beginning of the snowball which ended in the birth of “atoms”.  But according to him (Brown), something OUTSIDE the organisms, inside the microscopic view, was guiding the organisms – something so small you cannot see it – something invisible.

 

But where did the scientists, if the atoms that guided the organisms to move around and was OUTSIDE the organisms, get to the point where the organisms as well as the OUTSIDE consist of one and the same thing, namely atoms.

 

So now the organisms (it can even be humans) are not only guided from inside, where science jumped from Brown time to Quantum Physics time everywhere – even everything consist of atoms.  But in the Brown time – only the outside atoms (which was invisible and the product of his imagination) were guiding/bumping the organisms.

 

So how can you manifest if you are guided from within you by atoms (as that is what atoms do according to Brown that lead to Quantum Physics perspective), but the atoms are also guiding the organisms/human from outside?

                                                                                                       17/07/2008 13:51 

 

Being guided from inside as well as outside – where/how do you find your way to manifest?  As according to Brown, the invisibility guides the organism and not the organism the invisibility (the later in Quantum Physics times, atom).

                                                                                                         17/07/2008 13:54

 

And the two end times gives first a 13 + 51 = 64 and the second 13 + 54 = 67.  This gives a 6 and 6 or 12 (number of fulfillment) and a 47 – where 47 linked to PI ((4)22/7).

Ns.  This means that the atoms (or Brown’s invisible objects) are guiding humankind and cannot be the other way around:  for humankind being able to guide what is what is guiding it.  Atoms guide (see under microscope), not the other way around.

This is the End of the Extended version of Thoughts6.

                                                                                             17/07/2008 14:55 or 555                

 

Sense or Nonsense – Missunderstand.

THOUGHTS

 

This is the Fifth Thought

 

01/07/2008 12:18PM (cell’s time) where we have from the time, that it gives a 12/9, the birthday of someone linked to the White Lion Protection Fund – or then, the symbolism of this number combination:  Straight from Avalon to The White Lion

 

I have written a letter to a friend this morning as follow:

 

“….01/07/2008 8:43AM

 

You were looking for me yesterday and because of the bad quality of hearing at the place we were, I had to ask you if I could phone you back.  But now it seems we have lost each other totally.  I am trying to phone that number you used over and over, but now it is down completely.

 

Anyway – I am struggling at this stage not only coping with my dog’s death, but also questioning the stuff I wrote.  I know it must sound totally weird/abnormal to anyone who does not understand the levels me and my friends are working on.  And the other thing is:  only if you read all the parts from a certain point, will you perhaps understand what the “parts” are leaving behind.  A path, a path to what is good for this Creation and what not.  I am fooling around with the Big Boys of Physics and what they believe – and it seems if you do not agree (and I do not disagree – and that is why I am not understood, because how does this make sense?), you are viewed as abnormal.  If you only think white, or if you only think black, you will definitely not understand what I am trying to convey.  If you think, ah, maybe white or black, then you have succeeded to another level.  But when you think grey, and even disregard black or white and immediately think grey, you are considered weird/abnormal.  And everything in “weird/abnormal” is a no-no to society!

 

I am battling with this.  I may have a publisher, but I am in so much distress because of what the sentencing of the critics eventually might be, that I do not know if I want to publish whatever I have written at all.  A woman I met about a week ago, she wanted me to actually tell a room full of people that think more or less think alike (though not quite the same as they are not that weird) of what the message is that was given to me.  But my problem is I am scared – scared of being thought of as weird.  Although I do know that those people are open and was actually very interested in what I had to say.  And I could talk to those people about my written stuff and I did not even stutter until I came to the part where all the options there are started.  Then I could not focus as I was not prepared for what I was saying.  I was also not ready for the occasion.  Never expected that anyone will listen to what I have to say.

 

Anyway, you don’t want to hear about my problems on this first day of the month – you have a whole month to plan today and tomorrow.

 

REGARDS

Renee

01/07/2008 9:00AM….”

From this letter I realized one thing as I was thinking about the letter I wrote to my friend:  Humankind want The Creator to be something they understand.  That is where the understanding comes from that if something is black – most of humankind understand that.  So that will also be the picture that they would want from a God.   But if you talk about black and its opposite, namely white, and understand they go along as the one is the opposite of the other, we will understand a God on that level.  But if we understand by hearing of black – the term “grey” and without even thinking of white, understanding that black and white in its point of reaching the balance point, give grey, to humankind is something of no sense.  And that is what our Creator is, something that to humankind, will make no sense at all.

So maybe I must not feel that bad at all.  As I also told my friend, the Big Boys of Physics in today’s world of Physics, will probably feel they disagree with what I say – if they even take the time to read what I wrote!  But as I said, I do not agree with them (although I also do not disagree with them), but that is the issue with the things I wrote – nobody will probably be able to say that they do not agree with me, but they also do not disagree with me, that the main problem is just that what I wrote does not really make sense, or something they understand.  But that was my problem in the beginning as well.  This making sense thing, and I had to adjust to that.  Something that does not make sense, but something that is also not senseless!  We can never put The Creator in any form of making sense or making no(n) sense.  As this is part of the state of mind of being in the world of opposites.  And making sense differ from human to human, as it is also just a perception.  And I have shown in previous letters to Lore, that perception is something that is called in the Oxford Dictionaries, something that is misleading.

So all the things I wrote so far may not make sense to most of humankind (especially if I think of the reaction of some of the dudes in (at) the world (Blueworld) where they are asking, after reading one piece, “WTF”, meaning, they have no clue what is going on there.  Then another one gave the comment:  Dude, this is seriously weird…

But those are the people (humankind) that fall in the category of black is black and white is white.  They are not even realizing that black and white are each other’s opposites, let alone that grey is what you eventually get where black and white come together…

 

Anyway, what does it matter?  I am just asking myself that question.  Maybe it is their life task to stay where they are, in a world of only “black” or a world of only “white”.  Grey may not even appear to them (of course this is all symbolism the black and white and grey thing) as the point where black and white get into balance.

This is the End of the Fifth Thought of THOUGHTS.

01/07/2008 12:41PM and 12 and 14 (the inverse of 41), is the combination linked to Joan of Arc.